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Thursday, September 5, 2013

second day living at my guardian house

Well, i didn't tell you that i have a guardian am i? well yes.. i do have but i don't call them as my guardian. i call them as my family. My another precious family. I have a great family over here. They love me so much and at the same time i learn alot. I get to know something that i never go through in my life. Psychology? yes kind of. Things that came from them is totally different. The power that they describe is like curing oneself instead of the real power. Happiness is the key of the whole course. Well i never go through the course yet but yet i can determine what would be the course like. I hope i can go through one day and describe further to you people :D

Monday, August 26, 2013

Financial crisis 2008

Do you know the financial crisis happened in 2008? Which the two largest bank was informed bankruptcy ? Do you know which two ? The Lehman brothers and bear sterns. Both of these company have gone bankrupt due to subprime mortgage crisis. Subprime mortgage crisis described as loan that given to the investor or public , unable to earn back . Later on , these public or investor that failed to pay the bank , it will transformed from loan to bonds and sell it to international. In that case, the economic has gone down so badly because most of the poor people unable to sustain the needs and wants for their daily life. The two main bank has turned up into total of 40k plus amount of people to jobless or unemployed. If there were professionals or experts in the company . It increases the competitors and most of the low education level employees will be fired easily. All of this situation occurred and appeared it is because of the greed of an individual or higher level position of the two major company . The ceo or board of directors wanted to gain more business . However. It is obviously shown that most of the public unable to pay the debt and ends up turns into bonds. They were not only unable to pay but also facing some difficulties in surviving in the future. That's why human shall not greed . Greed will never gives an advantage once but many disadvantages was obviously stated over there.

Friends

There are many friends appear in our daily life. Not only the past but the future . Sooner or later we will get to know more people if we approach someone that willing to be friends with us. What is friend ? Friends is a person that you know had gone advance a bit from stranger to a person that you know. Why friends unable to describe in terms of a person that you close with ? Well yes you can but they no longer become friends , they become best friends  or bestie. I have four best male friends while I'm in secondary  and two bestie in universiti. Best friends is not only the person you close with but it is also the person you willing to care the most. Bestie or best friends will always lend a hand of theirs, no matter what trouble we faced. I was once face a huge trouble , I was dump by my x gf and I was caught in a serious accident that time . My emotion was too depress , which was obviously shown on my face . My best friends purposely came just to comfort me . They treat me a huge ad expensive meal and they also brought me to gold cinema for a movie . We were having so much fun. My emotion slowly lighten and brighten up my day. I thought no one will gonna help me to go through such hard time. However , what was I didn't expect , my best friends came just want to brighten my day. Thy even convince me to forget the future and get a new things for yourself such as find a new girl friend . However , i failed . I wasn't fail to get a girl friend but I fail as in I don't want to get a gf . Sometimes what we need is time. The 6 person in my life , I will never forget and I will repay everything they did to me . I feel so grateful so have such best friends






Everyone has attitude of procrastinate but I'm might be the worst . Frankly speaking I had even tried to asked or request my friend to help me write for my blog instead of writing myself . I have gone so bad lack of ideas and I don't know what should i do . So I just went to ask for help , I might not need to do myself. However, I was scolded once for asking help too often. He even scolded me for not writing my blog myself . It was so simple after all. Every blog in my blog is written by myself since day one , after scolded by him. There was one sentence he mentioned to me which I feel guilty "this is your own path way , you should walk by yourself instead of asking someone to walk for you. In fact , there will be no one helping you to finish your own journey ". This beautiful sentence that wakes me up . He is just so noble to me . Since the day happened , I have changed a lot. I have been doing things myself diligently . I tried my very best to complete my works on time instead asking for help. Procrastinate is not gonna save you but it will just destroy your life , if we had such attitude. We shall change from now on, it will brought you a huge disaster in future. Not only in terms of works or job but also family problems will able affected. For example , as role model of a father , showing a procrastinate attitude will reflect your own children for being the same attitude . Procrastinate attitude remains will never allow a person to be success in the future. No matter go our there reading my this post , if you were one of them , please do change before its too late .


Fast foods

Fast foods. Well yes i dislike fast foods. The best selling fast food in malaysia which is macdonald. However, i hate the most. What's so nice about the burgers? Ain't special after all. Even though i asked my friend. They will replied me "i'm loving it". I stunned for a few minutes and said "are you kidding me?". Fast food will never brings health or balance diet for us but only cancer. If we often consumer fast food, we probably die faster or get cancer. Healthy body needs a healthy balance diet. What is a balance diet? Balance diet is foods that we consumer is equal to your body which able to gain health . Healthy body unable obtain in one day, same goes to cancer.

Monday, August 5, 2013

Life nowadays

Everyone do their best in their relationship, friendship and Families.

Although some might not, But I've tired my best, even there have some problems sometimes, But I always thought people will be appreciate what I did.


I can be jokes in front of you, I can be maid or even an angel for you.

But Don't take me for granted.  I respect anyone who respect me. I love anyone who love me.

But I know in some kind of relationship, The longer you stay, the faded it will be.
I told many guys " never stop chasing a girl" even she had belongs to you.
No doubt, in this world, there a lots of girls being sacrificed for guys.... which i do believe

As a guy, I will sacrificed for you as well, but I realized The more I sacrificed for you, the more you take me for granted. Don't ever try to do that.  


Just to remind you, once I turn away, I will never come back.
Even though I will regret, Even I think about you sometimes, But I know what I want. I choose to live better or happier. People always says that It's hard to continue chasing but It's harder to give up.

Monday, July 29, 2013

Who am i ?

This is a toughest topic ever i write in my blog. People used to ask "who are you?" at the very first place. Simple as that to reply "i'm steven". However, if the same question goes to me "who am i ?" i might not give you the perfect answer instead of introducing myself. When this question/topic gave to me, i have been hesitate for quite a long time. It is because i couldn't understand myself well. How could people understand me, if even myself couldn't understand myself well. It makes me feels like i'm a walking dead people.

Few days later, i tend to give myself an opportunity. I look at the mirror and ask myself "who am i ", "what am i " and "what i want". The answer show up in my mind. I'm a guy who like freedom. My friend used to say you are not suitable in a relationship yet, because you are guy who like freedom as a bird. A bird locked up in cage, will suffer to death. I agree with his statement, whatever he says about me. He is right. In interpersonal com, there is a theory so called "blind self". What people sees you, you can't see it yourself. Freedom is everything to me but i hope i can control this freedom. Everyone needs a family , so am i . Soon i might be a dad one day or a husband. Freedom is just too short, but what i need now is freedom. So i would rather be single right now instead of going further. Perhaps fate comes, no one knows.

The other things that bothered me recently is "lost". I'm a person who feeling lost right now. I have no idea what i want, neither my dad. My dad used to help me a lot in this. Sometimes he will ask me what i want to learn or what i want for my future. I feel so guilty because i couldn't answer him. Frankly speaking, i wish i could be a singer one day, but i couldn't sing well. If i couldn't sing well, i wish i could take part in a role of a film or series. That's what i want but this is impossible. Just a dream. Is not easy to be an actor or artist. I might have a tough life if i'm going for the field. However, i would like to give a try. I have been learning chinese painting for almost a year. I tend to ask myself is that what i really want? To be a famous artist? I would like to give my very best on that , but at the same times i wish i can learn music. Music is what i want for long. However, my dad don't allow me to learn guitar nor drum. I wish someone can give me some advice what i really want. As if a bird feeling lost

Monday, July 22, 2013

I used to read comic when i was age of 12. However, i stopped reading it because i don't have time to spend on reading comics. Japanese comics were one of the famous comics in the world until today. Their drawing is not just only attracting but the story lines are always the best and creative which suits our current subject creative thinking. One of the best comic i read when i was kid, "Slam Dunk". Everyone know what is slam dunk after all.You must be joking if you don't know what comic is this. Once the famous comic in the world. I have collected the original copy of the whole series (books). I love slam dunk it is because it is something different compare to the others. The main character of the book, he is way to awesome. I wish i could be like him. He is not gifted nor talented. However, what he did is effort. He trained basketball everyday to improve himself to cross his limit. The best part of the whole comics, is the ending part. Fighting against the top 4 japan basketball team. The part which he push himself to the end, just to pass the ball to his teammate and shoot to get the last score to counter. It is way to perfect. This is what we called teamwork. He was injured in the match but it was the best match ever. I learnt many lesson from this comic. No matter how difficult our life is, we do not give up. Sad to heard that one of our student commit suicide is just because of study pressure. Our life is given by our parents. Why don't we appreciate it? This is just the beginning of the challenge in our life. We have to still more to go. Enjoy our life as long we go on.

Monday, July 15, 2013

Last week i went the art gallery show at Mid Valley Megamall. It was huge art exhibition i have ever been to. Even though, i study cooperate communication. The artwork of the local artist inspired me. I have been learning chinese painting for almost a year. It helps me in terms of ideas and concept of drawing nor skills. Artwork and Drawings is the most creative things in the world. Every piece of drawing will form a concept . Such as cars, typographic and more.  There is a drawings that attracted me the most. I have been looking at it for almost 15 minutes, just to seek the meaning of the drawing. As you know every artist have their own reason while they are in the process of completing the drawings . This drawing is showing a broken heart drew in black and white colour. Inside the heart you can see a black shadow of a person sitting lying on the wall. I was trying to catch up the meaning of the whole drawing. At first, my friend told me it was simple drawing , not attractive at all. However, to me it is a great drawing. From the point of view of an artist, he drew broken heart which mean his heart broken as in love. Love is in red colour everyone knows that, but he drew in black and white. It means when the moment he drew this he is explaining that true love no longer exist in this world but only money. White is referring to the poor while the black is referring to the rich. A shadow of a person was drew in the white broken heart. Which mean he is referring to the person is upset because the love ones go for the rich person instead of him. The whole drawing is very meaningful. It explain the reality of the world. People being so realistic leave the poor and go for the rich. Everything is about money. Well this is not the only art drawing i saw but is the most meaningful drawing i have seen in the art gallery show.

Tuesday, July 9, 2013

Silly :D

Remember the childhood story Beauty and the Beast? i got lot's of things to say. This story really ruin up my childhood life. First thing that doesn't make sense is that why would a bunch of people wanted to send a pretty girl away to a beast. If in real life, people would just give a horrible girl to a beast instead of pretty ones. They would rather marry her. Let it make sense somehow and continue the story, how could a pretty girl fall in love a beast. Come on guys, think in a positive way. If you see a bear in front of you. Will you choose to escape or you would rather stay and fall in love with him. This is ridiculous. Nevertheless, a spoon,  candle, and a god damn clock can talk. Really? for god sake. If these things can talk, my life wouldn't have be so lonely and pathetic . Everyday i have someone to talk to isn't it right? If i'm the writer of the beauty and the beast. I will change the story and make sense in some way. First of all, an ugly engineer girl accidentally trap into a castle. A prince who is lonely and being alone all the time fall in love with this ugly girl because he never get to see a pretty one. She is an engineer so she created a clock, spoon that can talk. So she could spend time with all of them with the prince. So the prince wouldn't get so bored. One fine day, both of them was cursed and turn into pretty and beast. Because they know each other. So they were not afraid. Later on, they found a potion and cure. Live happily ever after. Bullshit right? i know that. But it seems logical, isn't it ? Well the end.

Monday, July 8, 2013

the story we used to read "cinderella"

I was told to write a children story.Frankly speaking,it inspire me.  Some how this things came up to my mind, which is "cinderella" This story was written long time ago . As you know that the plot inside the story which i don't need to repeat again. In reality, it do exist in Spain but in the other way "a poor fisherman married to a billionaire daughter". What a lucky guy. Honestly, if you wanted me to give a comment about cindrella story. All i can say is a stupid story which do not bring fun, fantastic nor interesting. When i was a child, i used to think everything is simple , i can be the role as a prince and meet someone which is pretty. In fact, i am not rich as a prince. I'm just a poor fellow that has no money nor big castle. Even though, on the other way round, i could meet a girl who is rich and fall in love with me. Everyone will look down on me, they will thought i am just a piece of rubbish depending on a girl, so that she can feed me forever. What a freak. Nevertheless, i'm not handsome as the prince. As you know, nowadays all the girls is looking for hot guys. I have heard one of a girl, she told me that "handsome unable to last long cannot but ugly will last long forever"and after that you have to face or look at him everyday. i was stunned for a moment while she told that to me. This is reality and everyone is not being sarcastic , they really mean it . I have give up on girls for being so realistic. However, it doesn't mean i'm going to be a homo. Homo is not my taste nor my forte.
Back to the story, why i said it is not interesting . First of all, it couldn't improve the knowledge of a child nor inspire them somehow. The story was too bored. Everyone wants to become a princess to meet a prince. In fact, we can't. Most of all, we are just ordinary people. So it destroyed a dream of a child for being sarcastic that one day they can become a princess/prince to meet someone exactly the same. Nevertheless, there is no magician or oz that able to fulfill your wish. In reality, we have to work harder to earn money. There is no such thing that the money falling down from the sky or the tree will grow money. So face the reality of the world. This world is cruel and everything is about effort and money.

Stress for weeks, This life is just the same like others. 

Everyone wants to be unique but most of us can't. Even those successful one went on the same path( before or currently


How to define as success?


Most of us's theory - Rich, Richest. Money. A lot lot lots of Money.


Those who really make a lot of sacrificed to the world, we DON'T really care about it.


For example, your dream is - went to Africa and be a volunteer to help them up. But the main point- What's the salary, is this going to your whole life? Are you going to stay there forever? How about your family, your work life ? Are you going to abandon them down and just walk away ?   There is only 1 person can do that in 100 people. It's a good and meaningful job. But when you abandon all these, You just being irresponsibility in other way.



Because in our life, we are not alone, we are not the only person need to be responsibility to our own life. We are participate in each others life. Our family, Our pets, Our lover, Our friends.



Sometimes, when I look around the people, some friends went insane to get money, some friends don't know whats the path they going to get. Some, lost in the path. But, I still meet some normal one, get thing when they should and work hard on it.




However,I am clear where my path is, and When I should get it. I know what is my future and my aim.


But sometimes, I just can't denied that I being confuse of (meaning of life)

Monday, June 24, 2013

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C7kdGFVcask

my precious, Jang geun suk

it reminds me of you , nicole......hehe i miss you :D

The Sister


Unfortunately i have a relatives, a sister. Currently is the worst person i ever meet in my life. I haven't meet someone worst than her. Someone that able to kill me without any tool or strategy. Someone that can kill me with just the mouth. Her mouth was cursed by a witch, which i think so. Her mouth is poisonous than a snake. Whatever things that came out from her mouth, is like a gun pulled the triggered, that will break your heart instantly. Have you ever meet a girl that able to scream or shout "FUCK YOU" in front of the gate of the house, while your neighborhood weren't sleep yet? She just did recently. It was so wrong as a girl shouting in front of everyone. Can you imagine that? Gosh !

Two days ago, i had a quarrel with her. I have been so mad and just went beyond limit of my anger. I was so pissed off. June 22 was my mother birthday. I have been telling her to share the present. As we know that if you wanted to buy an awesome present, it probably costly. In common sense, we should share present so that we can buy something worth it for her. Unfortunately, she is kinda brainless and selfish, she didn't want to share the present with me and she never planned to buy present for my mom. How could this be? She has been saying that she will buy herself since two years ago until today. The present wasn't show up yet. Even though is just a small matter, but she couldn't make it. Worst sister ever seen in my life.

So this quarrel has been for two days, there are additional argument as well which is not convenient to post it here. The latest argument topic was about "disrespectful". I used to fetch her every monday, tuesday and wednesday, saturday and sunday from work. Currently, she is working at subang in an art gallery shop. She is the teacher of the centre. Yesterday, i went fetch her after i attended the talk at setapak. I was extremely tired and i have no intend to argue with her. She was trying to pick a fight. The story goes like this, my dad said a joke to us. I was desperate to have a two doors sport car, CRZ. However, she mentioned this to her boss exactly what dad said to me. " i will buy you two doors car, i will buy a myvi and i sealed the door behind so it became two doors car. Right? so deal". Was it funny? SERIOUSLY ? After her boss heard what she mentioned, her boss said " MYVI SO EXPENSIVE BUY VIVA BETTER". I was like so mad and i told her go back home by herself. For real, the first time i left her just like that. Well, i'm petty but she is even worst. A person like to pick a fight all of a sudden. Can you imagine if you have a sister like this? I probably think that you will rather die .

Monday, June 17, 2013

Why Love is so important

So often we spend most of our time taking care of our physical needs. We make sure our bodies are fed, cleaned, clothed, exercised and rested. We also make sure intellectual stimulation and entertainment is a priority. Yet we also overlook the most important need -- love. Of course, as a society, love is not overlooked. Popular media constantly places great emphasis on what we need to do and how we should look to attract "love". But being loved is not as powerful an emotional need as that desire to love someone else. The need to love and care for others is built into us biologically. This need is what allows parents to forgo sleep, food, and sanity while raising their children. This need is what allows people to put themselves at risk to save others from natural disasters and human threats. This need is what makes human society work on both a small and large scale. Loving others allows us to put the needs and desires of others before our own. We will work harder and longer, sometimes at jobs we loathe, to provide for those we love. We will tolerate otherwise intolerable conditions to provide care for our loved ones whether they are young or old. Love means to cherish, hold dear, and treasure. We do not hurt, harm, or cause pain to those we love; rather, we seek to relieve their suffering. It is not about wanting people; it's about wanting people to be happy. It's not about wanting to possess or control others; it's about wanting to set them free. John Oxenham described love this way: "Love ever gives. Forgives, outlives. And ever stands with open hands. And while it lives, it gives. For this is love's prerogatives - to give, and give, and give." Love is the grease that allows the wheel of life to continue turning. For when we love we look beyond ourselves, beyond our needs and desires. We sacrifice our time, our energy, our wishes, and sometimes even ourselves because of love. Sometimes it is for an immediate person or group that we know intimately and love completely, but other times it is for a larger group of people that we don't really know or perhaps even like. It is love that allows law enforcement and emergency services personnel to face danger. It is love that allows soldiers to risk everything. Love makes heroes every day in every corner of the world. As Thomas ã Kempis said: "Love feels no burden, thinks nothing of trouble, attempts what is above its strength... It is therefore able to undertake all things, and it completes many things, and warrants them to take effect, where he who does not love would faint and lie down." The ultimate definition of love is not about feeling good but rather about doing good. A perfect example of love in action is Mother Teresa who worked so long and so hard on the behalf of others. However we see it all around us if we look for it. Robert Louis Stevenson said: "The essence of love is kindness." Love is important because without it life has no meaning or purpose. As Frank Tebbets says "A life without love in it is like a heap of ashes upon a deserted hearth, with the fire dead, the laughter stilled and the light extinguished." Love allows us to be more and do more than we could ever accomplish without its power

Monday, June 10, 2013

The reality

When we were small, we are taught that there is always good and bad ; right and wrong. That harming others are bad. That stealing, killing, fighting, cheating are bad. That policemen are always good and the criminals are always bad. As we grow we learnt about corruption and not everyone that stands on the right side of law is always a good person. What if the person who steals, who fight, who harm others have reasons to do so but the law just turns a blind eye to everything? How do you judge a person who steals from a criminal that used that exact same money for the harm others, to harm society? If we are being bullied and the bullies hit us, we are always taught to avoid fighting back since this make us being the same as the person who initiated it and that we should not stoop to their level. What if you are so self-righteous, the person is insulting our parentage and going too far? What is you fight back for the sake of filial piety? What if you have been bullied for so far and suddenly your life is in danger( critical scenario) without anyone to turn to (calling for help, police, and outside interference has been lost for a reason) and for self-defense purpose, you fight back? The law is created by people and the law states that causing others harm can bring you to court to be judged. There are loopholes in laws that give reasons for people to commit an action that in our early childhood is taught to be “wrong”. For example: justifiable homicide, where you kill to protect yourself. We all know that killing is so wrong and those that kill should be brought to justice. If killing is so wrong, what does justifiable homicide tell us? Either way, its killing but the assailant is not accused of manslaughter. What about euthanasia? The act of killing/ending ones’ life to end suffering? In many countries, they are banned but in certain places, as long as they have patient’s consent, then it is legally justified. How is killing justified in this way? How does ending ones’ life either human or animals be categorized under the “right” or “wrong” in the children’s mindset? True, humans are complex creature, we have morals, we have our ideals we have feelings. And these are what separate us form other species. Hence, the laws are also evolving. Despite that, the laws are not perfect. As we grow from infants to adults, we see the real world. We know the world is not always perfect, life is not always fair. Some innocents are convicted to life in prison while those that are guilty walk away Scott Free. In movies, we watched where the criminals lose, the bad guys killed. How those that reflect upon us? Sometimes, we watch the protagonist that is not on the good side or we call them the anti-hero takes the roles of some tragic character, killing and ending the criminals’ life in the name of revenge. The typical “evil tyrant who got rich by killing, stealing from people and also killing the anti-heroes family where the hero would bring justice by killing the mastermind” scenario. What does that tell us? I am not justifying killing from the reason of taking revenge since all of it is only depicted in medias, in fictions, and for entertainment purposes. But who is to say that in real life, that there is no 1 or 2 people out there doing the same thing and walking away without being judge, or rather yet without being discovered? Many people have confused themselves with the borderline between the real world and the fictional world, and these play a big part in what we called “the common sense” of the generation. I am not a law person and would not justify anything that is said here. There bound to be some points that are incorrect in the above mentioned but all of these are just my thoughts, my point of view .If a father who watched too much crime drama and told his son that sometimes it is ok to murder someone and the son really did that, how is that handled? From small, while we did our studies, exam and whatnot, there is only 1 answer, right and wrong in subjective question. As we go to college, university, we know that there are no correct or wrong answers. Sometimes, making a decision is up to you and there are not definite answers. There are no black and white but a shade of grey. I have a pharmacist friend who told me. If the patient has no other choice but to take a medicine for the better of his/her health but that medicine has side effects that will harm him/her and there are no alternative medicines. What will he do? There is something called the “benefits outweighing the risks” and he will make a decision based on which side wins. The benefits or the risks.These decisions have no black or white but is in the zone of “shade of grey”. In the real world, when we have jobs and so on, in certain instances, we have to make these kind of decisions. How do we act? Does it have a reference book to guide us on this like in high school? Do we have to choose just (a) or (b)? No. We have to think and we have to make a decision practically. Actually, how does all this idea came by? The black and white; the shade of grey. The good/ bad;the law. The ideas that state that we cannot just go on a one-minded track but spread those decisions like crossroads, with many junctions and destination. That we can’t just say “Oh. He kills a person, he’s wrong, he is evil!” but have to think standing in theirs shoes, thinking that not everything what it seems, thinking that it is not just right and wrong , black, and white but a shade of grey. That a bit of critical thinking can come a long way, can set your path in the correct or incorrect way. I based all my ideas, point of view, belief that I have written here by watching just a simple movies called “Now you see me”. In it, it states that to not look too close or you would miss things but view it from far and you will see thing in a different way. And by that, it has sparked some sort of recollection that I have been taught years ago, that have to think “outside the box” and not just confined ourselves in a tight room without exits. As humans evolved, they learnt to think outside the box. As we undergo the natural stages of growth from childhood to adulthood, we learn that in the real world, to survive we have to think outside the box, that there is always a shade of grey. As stated, the points listed here are not used to justify that killing is ok or harming others is ok but simply saying that we should always open ideas to possibilities, and to take critically and not just follow everything blindly.

Monday, June 3, 2013

Have you watched the movie "The Great Gatsby"? The story was written by an american author F.Scott Fitzgerald. It was written 19 century ago, the genre was about romance. However, the romance story wasn't that perfect, it wasn't like others "live forever after". It was the best romance movie i ever watched, even though the ending part of the movie wasn't perfect, but it was the fact and reality of this world.It do exist between the human life, perhaps not you nor me. Basically, Gatsby is just ordinary guy, who blindly fall in love with a girl. Everyone used to fall in love a girl blindly, especially the first love ones. This movie reminds me of the girl i love, which is my first girlfriend and now had become my ex-gf. There is scene where daisy married to a guy because she just couldn't wait for gatsby to come back, even though they still keep in touch. I remember the day we broke up, she told me that she fall in love with another guy. I was shock, my stupidity overwhelm me - tears falling down from my eyes, i couldn't control my emotion. i was trying to stop her from leaving me. I asked her "will you come back for me?". She refuse and say never and never. 10 months passed, i still missed her until today. I was convinced by my friend to stop thinking about her. She ain't worth it. She is just a stranger to you right now. A girl just cross by in your life. In the movie, daisy is just part of the life of gatsby. No matter he hard he have been trying to make daisy happy, she couldn't let it go her husband even though her husband is not being loyal to her and betrayed her. Loyalty and love no longer exist in my life. I do not believe anymore. Even though, it is just a few seconds of missing her. I will tell myself to stop thinking about her. I still have to continue my journey . I could have meet someone better. Be tough and be wise. I believe i can do it. I remember a quote from Johnny Depp, "if you fall in love with two person, you choose the second one , because if you love the first person, you wouldn't fall in love with the second person". What he said is right and truth. If a person do appreciate every single love that he/she went through, the person are the only one deserve the most love. That's what i believe......

Wednesday, April 24, 2013

Just wish to be your side.. Even though we are no longer together

It has been 8 months we broke up. Memories are still stuck in my head, especially when you smile to me. I can't let it go. I wish i could say i love you , i miss you once again. I hope i can meet you up again. Unfortunately, you are avoiding me. Ur birthday is coming soon. 26 more days. On the 19th, i promise i will plan a huge birthday celebration for you and your friends. I will not be there. I'm sorry . I knew that you hate to see me.......these few months....i keep on blame myself. How bad i treated you..is good you leave me..is good for you....i'm not a good person nor boyfriend..if i given another chance...i will treat you better ...i'm sorry baby....i'm sorry ..and i really miss you................i don't know what to say, so that you could forgive me.....however....everything is too late...isn't it?.....too late....在我心里,你还是那么重要。。。现在我只想保护你,可惜我做不到,因为你不让我保护你。。。我只能默默的想你。。。。爱着你。。。。等到你结婚的那一天。。。可能才是我新的开始。。。。。现在。。你要好好开心的活下去。。。。我爱你~!