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my precious, Jang geun suk

it reminds me of you , nicole......hehe i miss you :D

The Sister

Unfortunately i have a relatives, a sister. Currently is the worst person i ever meet in my life. I haven't meet someone worst than her. Someone that able to kill me without any tool or strategy. Someone that can kill me with just the mouth. Her mouth was cursed by a witch, which i think so. Her mouth is poisonous than a snake. Whatever things that came out from her mouth, is like a gun pulled the triggered, that will break your heart instantly. Have you ever meet a girl that able to scream or shout "FUCK YOU" in front of the gate of the house, while your neighborhood weren't sleep yet? She just did recently. It was so wrong as a girl shouting in front of everyone. Can you imagine that? Gosh !

Two days ago, i had a quarrel with her. I have been so mad and just went beyond limit of my anger. I was so pissed off. June 22 was my mother birthday. I have been telling her to share the present. As we know that if you wanted to buy an awesome present, it probably costly. In common sense, we should share present so that we can buy something worth it for her. Unfortunately, she is kinda brainless and selfish, she didn't want to share the present with me and she never planned to buy present for my mom. How could this be? She has been saying that she will buy herself since two years ago until today. The present wasn't show up yet. Even though is just a small matter, but she couldn't make it. Worst sister ever seen in my life.

So this quarrel has been for two days, there are additional argument as well which is not convenient to post it here. The latest argument topic was about "disrespectful". I used to fetch her every monday, tuesday and wednesday, saturday and sunday from work. Currently, she is working at subang in an art gallery shop. She is the teacher of the centre. Yesterday, i went fetch her after i attended the talk at setapak. I was extremely tired and i have no intend to argue with her. She was trying to pick a fight. The story goes like this, my dad said a joke to us. I was desperate to have a two doors sport car, CRZ. However, she mentioned this to her boss exactly what dad said to me. " i will buy you two doors car, i will buy a myvi and i sealed the door behind so it became two doors car. Right? so deal". Was it funny? SERIOUSLY ? After her boss heard what she mentioned, her boss said " MYVI SO EXPENSIVE BUY VIVA BETTER". I was like so mad and i told her go back home by herself. For real, the first time i left her just like that. Well, i'm petty but she is even worst. A person like to pick a fight all of a sudden. Can you imagine if you have a sister like this? I probably think that you will rather die .

Why Love is so important

So often we spend most of our time taking care of our physical needs. We make sure our bodies are fed, cleaned, clothed, exercised and rested. We also make sure intellectual stimulation and entertainment is a priority. Yet we also overlook the most important need -- love. Of course, as a society, love is not overlooked. Popular media constantly places great emphasis on what we need to do and how we should look to attract "love". But being loved is not as powerful an emotional need as that desire to love someone else. The need to love and care for others is built into us biologically. This need is what allows parents to forgo sleep, food, and sanity while raising their children. This need is what allows people to put themselves at risk to save others from natural disasters and human threats. This need is what makes human society work on both a small and large scale. Loving others allows us to put the needs and desires of others before our own. We will work harder and longer, sometimes at jobs we loathe, to provide for those we love. We will tolerate otherwise intolerable conditions to provide care for our loved ones whether they are young or old. Love means to cherish, hold dear, and treasure. We do not hurt, harm, or cause pain to those we love; rather, we seek to relieve their suffering. It is not about wanting people; it's about wanting people to be happy. It's not about wanting to possess or control others; it's about wanting to set them free. John Oxenham described love this way: "Love ever gives. Forgives, outlives. And ever stands with open hands. And while it lives, it gives. For this is love's prerogatives - to give, and give, and give." Love is the grease that allows the wheel of life to continue turning. For when we love we look beyond ourselves, beyond our needs and desires. We sacrifice our time, our energy, our wishes, and sometimes even ourselves because of love. Sometimes it is for an immediate person or group that we know intimately and love completely, but other times it is for a larger group of people that we don't really know or perhaps even like. It is love that allows law enforcement and emergency services personnel to face danger. It is love that allows soldiers to risk everything. Love makes heroes every day in every corner of the world. As Thomas ã Kempis said: "Love feels no burden, thinks nothing of trouble, attempts what is above its strength... It is therefore able to undertake all things, and it completes many things, and warrants them to take effect, where he who does not love would faint and lie down." The ultimate definition of love is not about feeling good but rather about doing good. A perfect example of love in action is Mother Teresa who worked so long and so hard on the behalf of others. However we see it all around us if we look for it. Robert Louis Stevenson said: "The essence of love is kindness." Love is important because without it life has no meaning or purpose. As Frank Tebbets says "A life without love in it is like a heap of ashes upon a deserted hearth, with the fire dead, the laughter stilled and the light extinguished." Love allows us to be more and do more than we could ever accomplish without its power

The reality

When we were small, we are taught that there is always good and bad ; right and wrong. That harming others are bad. That stealing, killing, fighting, cheating are bad. That policemen are always good and the criminals are always bad. As we grow we learnt about corruption and not everyone that stands on the right side of law is always a good person. What if the person who steals, who fight, who harm others have reasons to do so but the law just turns a blind eye to everything? How do you judge a person who steals from a criminal that used that exact same money for the harm others, to harm society? If we are being bullied and the bullies hit us, we are always taught to avoid fighting back since this make us being the same as the person who initiated it and that we should not stoop to their level. What if you are so self-righteous, the person is insulting our parentage and going too far? What is you fight back for the sake of filial piety? What if you have been bullied for so far and suddenly your life is in danger( critical scenario) without anyone to turn to (calling for help, police, and outside interference has been lost for a reason) and for self-defense purpose, you fight back? The law is created by people and the law states that causing others harm can bring you to court to be judged. There are loopholes in laws that give reasons for people to commit an action that in our early childhood is taught to be “wrong”. For example: justifiable homicide, where you kill to protect yourself. We all know that killing is so wrong and those that kill should be brought to justice. If killing is so wrong, what does justifiable homicide tell us? Either way, its killing but the assailant is not accused of manslaughter. What about euthanasia? The act of killing/ending ones’ life to end suffering? In many countries, they are banned but in certain places, as long as they have patient’s consent, then it is legally justified. How is killing justified in this way? How does ending ones’ life either human or animals be categorized under the “right” or “wrong” in the children’s mindset? True, humans are complex creature, we have morals, we have our ideals we have feelings. And these are what separate us form other species. Hence, the laws are also evolving. Despite that, the laws are not perfect. As we grow from infants to adults, we see the real world. We know the world is not always perfect, life is not always fair. Some innocents are convicted to life in prison while those that are guilty walk away Scott Free. In movies, we watched where the criminals lose, the bad guys killed. How those that reflect upon us? Sometimes, we watch the protagonist that is not on the good side or we call them the anti-hero takes the roles of some tragic character, killing and ending the criminals’ life in the name of revenge. The typical “evil tyrant who got rich by killing, stealing from people and also killing the anti-heroes family where the hero would bring justice by killing the mastermind” scenario. What does that tell us? I am not justifying killing from the reason of taking revenge since all of it is only depicted in medias, in fictions, and for entertainment purposes. But who is to say that in real life, that there is no 1 or 2 people out there doing the same thing and walking away without being judge, or rather yet without being discovered? Many people have confused themselves with the borderline between the real world and the fictional world, and these play a big part in what we called “the common sense” of the generation. I am not a law person and would not justify anything that is said here. There bound to be some points that are incorrect in the above mentioned but all of these are just my thoughts, my point of view .If a father who watched too much crime drama and told his son that sometimes it is ok to murder someone and the son really did that, how is that handled? From small, while we did our studies, exam and whatnot, there is only 1 answer, right and wrong in subjective question. As we go to college, university, we know that there are no correct or wrong answers. Sometimes, making a decision is up to you and there are not definite answers. There are no black and white but a shade of grey. I have a pharmacist friend who told me. If the patient has no other choice but to take a medicine for the better of his/her health but that medicine has side effects that will harm him/her and there are no alternative medicines. What will he do? There is something called the “benefits outweighing the risks” and he will make a decision based on which side wins. The benefits or the risks.These decisions have no black or white but is in the zone of “shade of grey”. In the real world, when we have jobs and so on, in certain instances, we have to make these kind of decisions. How do we act? Does it have a reference book to guide us on this like in high school? Do we have to choose just (a) or (b)? No. We have to think and we have to make a decision practically. Actually, how does all this idea came by? The black and white; the shade of grey. The good/ bad;the law. The ideas that state that we cannot just go on a one-minded track but spread those decisions like crossroads, with many junctions and destination. That we can’t just say “Oh. He kills a person, he’s wrong, he is evil!” but have to think standing in theirs shoes, thinking that not everything what it seems, thinking that it is not just right and wrong , black, and white but a shade of grey. That a bit of critical thinking can come a long way, can set your path in the correct or incorrect way. I based all my ideas, point of view, belief that I have written here by watching just a simple movies called “Now you see me”. In it, it states that to not look too close or you would miss things but view it from far and you will see thing in a different way. And by that, it has sparked some sort of recollection that I have been taught years ago, that have to think “outside the box” and not just confined ourselves in a tight room without exits. As humans evolved, they learnt to think outside the box. As we undergo the natural stages of growth from childhood to adulthood, we learn that in the real world, to survive we have to think outside the box, that there is always a shade of grey. As stated, the points listed here are not used to justify that killing is ok or harming others is ok but simply saying that we should always open ideas to possibilities, and to take critically and not just follow everything blindly.

Have you watched the movie "The Great Gatsby"? The story was written by an american author F.Scott Fitzgerald. It was written 19 century ago, the genre was about romance. However, the romance story wasn't that perfect, it wasn't like others "live forever after". It was the best romance movie i ever watched, even though the ending part of the movie wasn't perfect, but it was the fact and reality of this world.It do exist between the human life, perhaps not you nor me. Basically, Gatsby is just ordinary guy, who blindly fall in love with a girl. Everyone used to fall in love a girl blindly, especially the first love ones. This movie reminds me of the girl i love, which is my first girlfriend and now had become my ex-gf. There is scene where daisy married to a guy because she just couldn't wait for gatsby to come back, even though they still keep in touch. I remember the day we broke up, she told me that she fall in love with another guy. I was shock, my stupidity overwhelm me - tears falling down from my eyes, i couldn't control my emotion. i was trying to stop her from leaving me. I asked her "will you come back for me?". She refuse and say never and never. 10 months passed, i still missed her until today. I was convinced by my friend to stop thinking about her. She ain't worth it. She is just a stranger to you right now. A girl just cross by in your life. In the movie, daisy is just part of the life of gatsby. No matter he hard he have been trying to make daisy happy, she couldn't let it go her husband even though her husband is not being loyal to her and betrayed her. Loyalty and love no longer exist in my life. I do not believe anymore. Even though, it is just a few seconds of missing her. I will tell myself to stop thinking about her. I still have to continue my journey . I could have meet someone better. Be tough and be wise. I believe i can do it. I remember a quote from Johnny Depp, "if you fall in love with two person, you choose the second one , because if you love the first person, you wouldn't fall in love with the second person". What he said is right and truth. If a person do appreciate every single love that he/she went through, the person are the only one deserve the most love. That's what i believe......