Just wish to be your side.. Even though we are no longer together

It has been 8 months we broke up. Memories are still stuck in my head, especially when you smile to me. I can't let it go. I wish i could say i love you , i miss you once again. I hope i can meet you up again. Unfortunately, you are avoiding me. Ur birthday is coming soon. 26 more days. On the 19th, i promise i will plan a huge birthday celebration for you and your friends. I will not be there. I'm sorry . I knew that you hate to see me.......these few months....i keep on blame myself. How bad i treated you..is good you leave me..is good for you....i'm not a good person nor boyfriend..if i given another chance...i will treat you better ...i'm sorry baby....i'm sorry ..and i really miss you................i don't know what to say, so that you could forgive me.....however....everything is too late...isn't it?.....too late....在我心里，你还是那么重要。。。现在我只想保护你，可惜我做不到，因为你不让我保护你。。。我只能默默的想你。。。。爱着你。。。。等到你结婚的那一天。。。可能才是我新的开始。。。。。现在。。你要好好开心的活下去。。。。我爱你～！